oh that was wonderful I really couldn't take it anymore hearing so many wonderful ideas and elucidations of concepts and thoughts and brilliant phrases and colourful descriptions and expanded understanding in real time all of those things are absolutely wonderful and are important to take in but it seems that there is a limit, or a balance, a perfect harmony of how much material we should take in before we should create some of our own again is that only based on personality types? is it that some people wish to have a certain influence and elevation of thought to allow them to reach the unknown and the impossible, as a synthesis and that they otherwise would not find the level of refinement needed to really understand more of the world or is it that they are simply distracting themselves with the owrds of others so that they needn't do the work of really thinking about the world and making a distinction, pointing to something, making a declaration of what they believe is real and what their reality is composed of I know that if I try to make sense of reality, and put it into concrete terms that I can refer to that it's something I'm always longing to do, and hoping to do, and in a sense am always preparing to do and that might just be an aspect of the central nervous system but when I actually get down to it, and start elucidating, start enumerating the details of it, I start to get a glimpse into the sheer complexity for which tal of exploration exists and how much time it would take, not only to explore it all, or even the most relevant parts but to really understand what each part is to see how they are interconnected, or the ways in which they are not, or the ways in which they appear to be connecfted but are actually a manifeslse there really is an ineffable complexity to it all, and that we try to pretend that it's something that can be understood, or that we've come to an understandign sufficient to decide that others must agree with it, and that if they do not agree with it, it's because they believe a version of reality that you yourself can describe the opposite of your onw reality the opposite values of my values the opposite belief systems with the opposite gods and the inverted implements all of the things that important to me are unimportant to you, and all of the things that you aspire to be are those things which I hope to never become it's a folly that we all play, or at least that I've played that I hope to one day cease to play is it simple a manifestatio nfo humanity? or is it something more primitive that couldn't develop to such a capacity in other animals in other biological organisms is it something sophisticated that causes us to aspire to a greater level? do we transcend limitation because of a belief that our peers are never of sound mind our peers are always planning to harm us such as is with the belief in transhumanism why would anyone hope to go down that path? well it's easy there are particular biological realities that are frightening for anyone in fact, what's most frightening about them is probably a sense that those moments where one is confronted with them are probably more unbearable than can even be imagined by someone prior to having to deal with it and if that's the case, then how is one to actually deal with it? it's something that can't be thought about too easily by too many or if it is thought about, and expanded upon or romanticized, or even just made to be quicker to overlook or deal with the emotional aspects of exit