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InYoung/Do I love my wife.md

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+Do I love my wife? What do I love, if not my wife?
+My love for her is a reflection of love for life.
+I love my wife because I love life, and I cannot love life if I do not love my wife.
+I love my wife, as I accept that existence should have come to be.
+I love my wife, and that's precisely why I'm here.
+I love her, even selfishly, as I yearn to exist forever so that I may stay with her and continue to feel her touch, listen to her thoughts and witness her expression.
+I love this opportunity to bear witness to a perspective into which I naturally place my faith.
+There is no life worth imagining except for one wherein that perspective can be shared.
+Through this perspective I observe a reflection of self, informing me of my way of being. Without this, life could never be complete.
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+The joy of witnessing my wife take in a moment of this world, savouring its absoluteness and, through that connection, instill hope and evoke dreams.
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+To see her take aim and create change in the Universe, borne of her desire, and to remark that, upon fruition, such change brings good to reality.
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+Could anything be more worthy of attention?
+There is no greater pursuit than to create yet better worlds for the very thing which makes the world good.
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+Therein we find ascension.

InYoung/InYoung_bday.md

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 and it is one's duty to bring such things to fruition to those closest to them
 in the case of my wife, to see her enjoy a moment of this blessed life
 to see her savour the hope of what can be
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 to take aim and evoke the changes to the universe which she desires
 and to witness that these changes bring good to reality
 it's difficult to conceive of something more worthy of attention

Poetry/Ascend.md

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+Ascend, tis a new day
+A new way of seeing light
+of taking flight
+behold the sight
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+In flux we were naked, the cool mysticism overcame us and suddenly we can predict murder and demise
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+Did you really? Did you see?
+Rise up, child
+You are the best part of me, for we have eternity to be free
+Sit here and gather insight with me
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+Perhaps it's not all we were told to expect it to be
+The noisy merchant always throwing tantrums, and looking back in glee
+They thought their own mother, she not wise to thee
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+The only nerve it struck is one of burning pain, and no one does the job better

Poetry/TheEugenecist.md

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+The eugenecist lives forever
+The architect
+The very expression of life
+The Universe's material soul
+Evidence of divinity
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+You have become the creator
+Your hands have brought forward remarkable effects which will be felt echoing through being for all eternity
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+You can never die, you are time itself
+Your mark is so distinct, you prove God incomplete

mind/visual_hallucinations.md

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+https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/11860679/
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+Many observers see geometric visual hallucinations after taking hallucingens such as LSD, cannabis, mescaline or psilocybin; on viewing bright flickering lights; on waking up or falling asleep; in "near-death" experiences; and in many other syndromes. Kluver organized the images into four groups called form constants:
+1. tunnels and funnels
+2. spirals
+3. lattices - including honeycombs and triangles
+4. cowebs.
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+In most cases, the images are seen in both eyes and move with them. We interpret this to mean that they are generated in the brain. Here, we summarize a theory of their origin in visual cortex (area V1), based on the assumption that the form of the retino-cortical map and the architecture of V1 determine their geometry. (A much longer and more detailed mathematical version has been published in Philosophical Transactions of the Royal Society). We model V1 as the continuum limit of a lattice of interconnected hypercolumns, each comprising a number of interconnected iso-orientation columns. Based on anatomical evidence, we assume that the lateral connectivity between hypercolumns exhibits symmetries, rendering it invariant under the action of the Euclidean group, composed of reflections and translations in the plane, and a shift-twist action. Using this symmetry, we show that the various patterns of activity that spontaneously emerge when V1's spatially uniform resting state becomes unstable correspond to the form constants when transformed to the visual field using the retino-cortical map. The results are sensitive to the detailed specification of the lateral connectivity and suggest that the cortical mechanisms that generate geometric visual hallucinations are closed related to those used to
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+process edges,
+contours,
+surfaces and
+textures.
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+https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/11316482/
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+Mathematical investigation of the origin of the same visual types described in previous study. Assumption is made that the patterns of connection between retina and striate cortex(V1) - the rhetinocortical map-and-neuronal units

new/paradox_of_focus.md

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+let the words flow
+let the words come and go
+let's see how many letters we can type in one session
+how many words can be arranged in succession
+how many phrases can be persuasive
+how many lingering thoughts are left after dissemination
+after defecation
+after the output of the magistrate out into the nation
+phrases of persuasian from hermits avoiding conflagration
+it's difficult to always direct your intent towards something
+but that's what we do
+we focus on things
+we take aim and think w're aiming at something, at least
+we believe we are focused, because we had, at some point, chosen to focus
+but as soon as you focus, or have focused, are you still focused?
+how long does it take before you are unfocused?
+do you know how to chnage your focus from unfocus to foucs or from focus to unfocus
+that might be easy
+but when you lose your focus
+are you choosing unfocus
+or other focus
+or are you just letting go?
+and if you ever completely let go
+might you simply just have a focus borne of not having to try and focus?
+is that what some of us yearn for?
+to just have the focus be automatic, so we can operate at a higher level?
+is that a human emotion or need?
+is that transcendance?
+what is it specifically that would make one do this, especially if there's a case to be made that it's not the most fruitful way to be
+well, I suppose that depends on how you are evaluating
+but if we are to focus on this world
+and not believe that there could be some sort of preparation for another world
+or a higher level of the same world we currently inhabity
+inhabit
+but if we just inhabit this one and try to think how we could be arranging and coposing ourselves
+training ourselves
+refining our skill
+all with the intent, at least as inferred by the manner in which we live and act and do things
+but with the intent of being able to do everything automatically
+or at least intuitively
+so that we needn't be so explicit in our direction
+allowing ourselves to second guess ourselves
+to get in our own way
+it's only when you let go completely that you aren't in your way
+sometimes you let go in order to commit
+and sometimes you let go t just let go and see where the chips fall
+is that a paradox? is that something to ber esolved?
+or are they different enough such that we don't think of them as a conflict
+there is a need or drive to let go
+and we can't always let go because we are busy trying to understand what needs to bef ocused on and what does not
+so when do we let go? when we sleep? when we dream?
+and is letting go a form of focus?
+it would seem that we are always struggling towards something, it ight just be the breathe, or it might be something less concrete and realizable or identifiable
+but we struggle to go towards something, with our incessant behaviour
+our neediness and our cultivation of bad habits
+our proclaiming of the things that we need to be doing
+and then the celebration of not doing them
+is this part of the movement towards our goal?
+or is it simply a learned unproductive habit?
+what is the ideal way to move towards a goal?
+with intuitive such that we can direct our focus to make the travel that much better
+that much more inspiring 
+that much more strongly expressed
+that much more carefully demonstrated
+what is the manner in which we best move towards a goal
+by carefully lining up every segment to be devoured?
+or to just dive into the deep
+and let go and have a ealthy mindset and positive attitude
+an understanding that even if what seems like the words could happen
+exit

new/presence.md

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+waking moments coming after then forever we uplift the nonsense from our lives
+do we always need a topic in order to discuss
+isn't there always an ongoing discussion
+a stream of thoughts, a stream of ideas
+something which is continuously flowing, even if it hasn't been put into words
+it is present and an expression of thought
+as it flows, we seek to make sense of it
+to give it a voice
+we sometimes feel we need another with which to interpret it
+even just to have the other
+because as much as one enjoys the romance of shared understanding
+the pragmatist would avoid such expectation
+the utilitarian would find a way to make the process still worthwhile
+and still enjoy the romance, without having to be ruined by it
+the benefit of having a pursuit, and also having a shared one. But not only that, no, also the improved insight of one another. As much as words would fail, the aspiration taht there could be greater understanding, and that each are transformed in the same time, with the same ideas, for the better or perhaps not, but with a witness who has some hope of realizing what you've become
+that is something to behold, and something worth maintaining one's presence for
+exit

new/systems_study_declaration.md

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+We must examine different systems and compare them to find similar expressions of behaviour.
+Since sound is an area that I can intuit most adeptly (at least within my frame of reference), it makes sense to use it, but not to rely on it solely.
+I have had good experience in other realms as well, so there must always be a second comparison.
+That said, the aspiration is to find similarities in order to canonicalize certain behaviours, and to understand that they are fundamental as an overarching law of nature
+that we can find laws or be able to predict forms and expressions which manifest within a given system
+and that we are able to find analogs in the other systems 
+in order to prove that this behaviour which we might already have a law or accepted theory at hand to describe and predict it
+may also be part of a bigger phenomenon which might be more universal
+and that our understanding of this could lead to better decision making for systems from the perspective of humans
+exit